The precarious predicament of the mind
What happens when we put our mind to something and focus on it?
The other day I was conducting a gut health assessment to test my gut microbiome. The test required a poop sample along with a blood test. There were two times specified to eat cookies upon a fasting schedule. I believe this would give the blood sample even more information.
I woke that morning and adhered to the schedule feeling rather anxious for paying attention to the directions and following them precisely.
In the afternoon, when it came time to conduct the blood test, I could not get the device to work accurately. It was like a suction cup on your upper arm that when the button is pushed, a razor-type blade cuts the skin which would then release blood flow to enter into a tiny vial.
IT DIDN’T WORK.
I began to freak out. I tried it three more times. Nothing was happening. I had my son come and push really hard on the button to see if it needed more effort to slice the skin. That didn’t work either.
I knew I did not want to go through the entire day again to get results, so I opted for a newly generated idea.
I gave my husband a call and together we let creativity take over.
We decided to use a razor to cut my arm and push the suction device onto my skin. I cleaned the area with alcohol and began the process. I did not even feel the razor and we were able to get the vial filled with blood.
Goal completed.
How often do we get in our heads and build a wall around an outcome simply because we think life must happen in a certain way?
How often do we get carried away in our thinking that we inhibit a simple solution to a big dream (or a desired outcome)?
For a while now I have been hooked into a mindful construct of these two overlapping phrases…
A precarious predicament you are in.
No one wants what you have.
At first, I explored how they related to the immediate moment which landed me in such emotions as frustration, sadness and, even, anger. I was so fixated on the external experience as being not good and unsatisfying.
I have had two recent extraordinary experiences that gave me pause to get more curious.
The first happened a few days ago as I went to an art class. The class specialized in colorful ink and alcohol used as the medium for creating depth in a color palette. The instructor provided instructions and explained what happens as the alcohol meets the ink. She said to us,
“It does not blend.
It reactivates and pushes the other out of the way.”
I instantly heard ringing in my ears which is a sign that there is some wisdom for me to acknowledge in what she had said. I became curious with a flood of questions to consider:
Why do not all energies blend?
What exactly is not blending – energy, vibration, intention, actions?
What is being reactivated?
Is there a gaining and a losing in this reactivation?
What is the other that is being pushed away?
When two energies come together, there is an opportunity to blend the energy, vibration, emotional agency, intention and action to form/cultivate/generate another – something that is unique to the two entities in that time and space.
My big AHA, or a whole-y awakening, was if the other is getting pushed away, that must be a signal there is nothing here in this exchange – the other person does not want the same as you. Here is a practical example…
Let’s say you and a friend come together for coffee and conversation. You begin to talk and feel the energy of what she is saying to you as a projection. She is saying things that feel intense and not really about what you are saying. She is making the conversation about her needs and not really listening to what you are saying. It feels off to you. This is a precarious predicament as the favorable outcome is not possible. The other person is in a space of past events that had gone unprocessed and therefore, the favorable outcome of connection and maybe even the exchange of wisdom and insight will not happen.
People can only meet you in a favorable manner depending upon how deeply they have gone into past unprocessed experiences. You can only meet someone to the depth of your unprocessed pain. So, if there are hurts that are unprocessed and avoided, that is the intention subconsciously driving your speaking, feeling, and actions toward yourself and others.
It is rather simple.
The other incident that occurred for me today was when a red-winged blackbird came pecking at the crown of my head. Yes, it hurt and scared me. In a bit of a shock, I turned and spoke to the bird who seemed to be looking at me. I believe the bird was protective of its nest because birds build their nests with intention.
Building something with intention requires an awareness of what feels satisfying and what feels unsatisfying.
How often do you act, speak and feel with intention?
How often do you shift from unsatisfying to satisfying with intention and awareness?
Much of what we say, do, and feel is misguided. We intentionally push away what we are afraid of receiving because our blinders are rooted in past circumstances and evolutionary psychic imprints.
Only in the present moment can you really implement a new intention, make a new choice, or decide differently.
The mind is so powerful it will hijack your desire to change and thus automatically subscribe you to an old pattern anchored to the illusion, meaning you believe the old experience is happening again.
3 phases are happening during subconscious automaticity:
Something external triggers or activates a sensation internally. This might be when you are performing a behavior, having a conversation with someone, or watching a show or situation.
An action takes place as a reaction to the internal narrative or story being circulated in your mind. You most likely will stop what you are doing as a way to avoid the illusive fear or aggravation. Or you might even work overtime to gain what you think is being taken from you, meaning you are wanting to get something.
There is a direct result or outcome that will circumvent that initial trigger or activation and for a brief time feel comforting. Pay attention to how you feel and look at the behavior after the initial comfort for THIS is the outcome that must be considered as satisfying or unsatisfying.
Your goal is a long-term satisfaction rate of consciousness. You are creating a conscious lifestyle.
Everything takes place from the activation of what the mind creates.
A precarious predicament is an indication that your mind has created an aversion and you might be experiencing the exact opposite of what you want. In this case, you would want to watch your language being spoken, your thoughts being linked together in your mind, and how your body is sensing the entirety of an experience.
“Stop the flow of your words,
open the window of your heart,
and let the spirit speak.”
-Rumi
The more aware we are of exchanges that offer a precarious predicament, the more we can consciously choose to stop, open, and give our spirit or soul the moment. When relationships and circumstances are activated by a deeper meaning or purpose, that is when true potential gets a heightened chance to be a key feature in your everyday life experiences. Otherwise, you are simply operating outside of yourself.
Stop looking for perfection and seek awareness.
Stop closing your heart to its true nature and give it a little opening to magnetize or lead you to elevation or growth.
When you don’t know, you know.
Strengthen your knowing by being ok with not knowing how something will turn out and with being unattached to an outcome.
Praise the process. Celebrate the small leaps within the momentum. Get excited about each action toward something.
All the glory is in the building – the curious state of creating.
We improve our life consciously with intentional micro-leaps into the unknown simply believing who we are is enough to make something happen.
Dispute that your life is about something. Your life is about the process of building something. That is where the living image pulsates.
And if you are not believing what I am saying, the heart is the internal voice of your life. The heart pumps and without your heart pumping, you would be non-existent.
Once we can get out of our minds and the constructs it builds, the heart can generate the outcome that best fits out need in the moment.
My arm never hurt from having the razor cut it. The process was short and sweet.
Are you creating a living image from your mind or your heart?